Krasa

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  • Joined Jan 13, 2022

  • Living in Amsterdam, Netherlands

  • Last active Aug 09, 2022

Krasa

February 14, 2022

That I have been told a few. But I only share a word heard from a little girl in the neighborhood.

  • You are really ugly!

To which she replies tit for tat:

  • Well, at least I am beaming!

She understood everything. In addition, she was rather cute (without ulterior motives).

The important thing is what we feel and what we share. She, instead of answering you too, or worse, chose to say a nice word in response to a hurtful word. She, therefore, radiates physical beauty but also by her whole person.

Krasa

February 14, 2022

"You really are a fat cow"

This simple sentence destroyed my whole life.

Aged 15–16, I was only 40 for 1m65, so to say that I was not fat. A classmate told me this sentence in the college locker room while we were changing for sports.

Race results, I became anorexic. I lost 45 kilos in 1 year, I thought more than 36 kilos. I only ate one yogurt per day and one glass of water per meal, so 3 glasses per day. Living in a house with 7 children no one really saw what was going on.

To top it off I was harassed by this girl's friends. I sacrificed myself and tried to kill myself at the age of 17.

Back to high school, new face, new teachers. Rebelotte harassment by my comrades for my sexual orientation, and was always there with me as well as my blade. 25 kilos. Zebra.

Mid-year a new one arrives in class. The first day she had to play sports. I usually managed to get changed behind a wall so that people couldn't see the state of my body. But because of a new girl in the class the whole locker room was full and the place next to the wall was taken by this girl. Only she sees my body and tears well up in her eyes but she doesn't say anything. Days pass and this girl hangs out with the "popular" class people who harass me. Being new she can't do anything not to find herself alone like me.

But her look and the tears she shed when she saw my poor body, woke me up...I'm bad...

Every day, without exception, this girl secretly sends me her bread and yogurts from the self-catering. I gained some weight. Even though the bullying never stopped until high school was over. I managed to regain control of my body.

Today I'm 26, and every day is a struggle with food, but thanks to this girl I'm alive. My body is covered with scars yes and I'm too skinny for my height 1m69 for 54 kilos but I'm fighting against my former best friend's anorexia.

Krasa

February 14, 2022

When my son was about 5 years old, he hated brushing his teeth. But I insisted that he brush them every night.

But one night he really didn't want to brush them, and when I told him he had to, he said - and I still can't believe it... " If you died, I wouldn't be sad ." WHAT?!

He's usually a very nice boy, so I concluded he loved his dad and didn't scare him away from tooth decay… or anything like that :)

Krasa

February 14, 2022

I was 5 years old and trying to learn to play tennis against the wall. Obviously, the adults tend in these cases to get rid of the kids as quickly as possible. But one day a boy who seemed tall to me but who in my opinion as an adult could not have been more than 11 or 12 years old taught me how to hold the racket and hit horizontally. I remember that day like it was yesterday and the strange thing is that I never saw this boy again in our club where I continued to play for at least 13 or 14 years...

Frankly, I can say that it has somehow changed my life.

Krasa

February 14, 2022

One day, my brother dragged me as usual with him to places I didn't want to go. This time it was the municipal landfill of our small town whose name I will not mention. Taking my psychopathic brother as an example, I searched the rubbish in the hope of maybe finding some treasure there.

We had neither gloves nor masks, the smell was unbearable and the rats had nothing to envy the big cats. After an hour or two, I came across a plastic bag containing course books, especially mathematics. As I was among the dunces in my 5th-grade class, I thought it could be useful.

We were at the beginning of the long holidays and our family did not have much means. Yes, I forgot to say that I am from a family of Turkish immigrants, my father worked at night and during the day we were not to make noise in the house, you will understand why.

To occupy my days, I started to work on one of the math books with lots of exercises corrected at the end and especially a lot of square roots and trig. I finished the book in two months, it was a cakewalk.

When I returned to school in 4th grade (just passed), I found myself first in the class in math. For the other subjects, I had a lot more facilities, I don't know why maybe the taste for studies...

I finally continued ansi until final C then to the university of physics.

Today I thank my brother for taking me to this landfill which changed my future.

Krasa

January 14, 2022

Nothing in life forces us to do anything. The only thing we have to do is live the human life on Earth.

For the rest, we can decide to let ourselves die or to try to commit suicide, without any guarantee of getting there when we decide. We can try to live in a thousand and one ways. We can imagine and try. Of course, that doesn't guarantee anything.

Setting a life goal is surely tantamount to giving yourself ambition.

This can become an obsession, a will present in a watermark or a simple wish.

The expression objective does not, therefore, seem to me to be necessarily appropriate. I would rather suggest “a life ambition” because what counts is not the dream or the objective but the means implemented to get closer to it at all times. Connected to the present. We can therefore in all humility try to give ourselves: the means of our ambition, of life.

Which obviously does not guarantee that our ambition is the best for us. But that's another debate… ;)

Krasa

January 14, 2022

Hi, I do indeed think that, as in the previous comment, you shouldn't be greedy and want to cut corners, as we say in life “slowly but surely”.

It is also important to establish a list in order of importance between what to do now and later.

I also think that the mental and the most important part, practicing a sports activity 2 to 3 times a week can help you to strengthen yourself mentally.

Perseverance is essential, and you may sometimes fail but above all do not give up!! All the Great Men have been there.

Krasa

January 14, 2022

Insofar as "end of life" is not necessarily synonymous with "old age" or "advanced age", everyone can ask themselves this question: "what if I were to die tomorrow/in 2 hours? 

What would you be thinking when asking yourself this question?

Probably to what you haven't had the opportunity to do yet, to all the love you would have liked to give to your loved ones, to your regrets, to your good deeds,...

This question refers to what is most important to each person. It is extremely deep, perhaps even awkward.

It refers to the meaning that everyone gives to his life, to his reason for being on Earth: has he then achieved his goal? If not, what can he do to reach it, before it's time to leave for real?

Krasa

January 14, 2022

As said in the previous comment from our birth our survival instinct is there very present, when we approach this subject I always remember my childhood and the other children who I played with and there it is obvious, the want to spend a great day full of discovery, be drawn to the unknown, marvel at a rainbow, a beautiful bird, plants, climb trees, pedal on my bike with this feeling of going further. For all children, apart from certain exceptions, unfortunately, our joys, our desires always push us further with this innocence. The world belonged to us and with little we were happy. After the laws of men and their all-troubled path that involve us is a bit like handcuffs, worries invade us, we seek ourselves, we become less innocent. Some will find their way there and others will search for a long time and see forever. From our learning of life will follow the future consequences, good or bad. But now we have the opportunity to know ourselves better psychologically, we have access to lots of information and can rectify our thoughts, have another vision of ourselves even while regressing to better analyze and evolve in a more positive direction, like having confidence. in itself, a better appreciation of the people who love us, to be more grateful and less demanding to be able to appreciate what life gives us, to be happy and to transmit……🌺🌺🌺

Krasa

January 14, 2022

The temporary life is a passing test for the eternal future life, either in paradise with its delights, or hell with its torments depending on whether our actions are right or wrong. Quran: Al-Imran-185.” Every soul will taste death. But it is only on the Day of Resurrection that you will receive your full reward. a present is only an object of deceptive enjoyment."

Credentials & Highlights

  • Joined Jan 13, 2022

  • Living in Amsterdam, Netherlands

  • Last active Aug 09, 2022